Into the Mind of Janny

This is the worst day to look and feel unattractive.* I have a friend who is has a custom formal wear business and as a favour I am in a fashion show tonight. For the last six months or so I've had problems with really bad acne all over my neck and of course it is beyond horrible today. In addition to that I have no idea how to do my newly short hair. Argh. Also, my eyes are completely blood shot from my contacts that I have been wearing all the time.** I'm praying for a valid reason not to go.
It is a very strange occurrence for me to be treated sole on how I look at these fashion shows. People talk to you like you don't even have a thought in your head, no different than a mannequin.

* I realize I am a complete Debbie Downer lately but without Horatio Sanz wiping his eyes with waffles.
* *Yes, I realize that flushing your glasses down the toilet is funny to those of who are not unemployed and need new glasses. Even when it happened I was half laughing an crying. Now that since my eyes hurt so much from my contacts, it is no laughing and more crying.