Grumble, Grumble

I hate technology
My desperate need for a new computer has become increasingly more desperate. I'm waiting until the new Mac operating system comes out next month but I'm not sure my laptop is going to make it.
The internet does not want to work. At first I thought it was just my computer but I shot some trouble and narrowed it down to my cable provider.
I'm going to start listening to angry rap music and scissor kick my computer to pieces.

Do you know what does not help an already bad mood? Being tired and in a bad mood.
I'm still not sleeping. I think I have something called delayed sleep phase syndrome. It is often misdiagnosed as insomnia (which I thought I used to have). I forced myself to pull an all-nighter in an attempt to set my sleep schedule straight. The sleep results:
Friday - 45 minutes sleep
Saturday - 4 hours sleep, awake for 7 hours, another 2 hours
Sunday - 7 hours of non-continuous sleep, an hour and half nap (intentioned on a half hour), 20 minute nap (unintentional)
Monday - 3 hours
It is so stupid I cannot sleep at night, during the day sure but not at night. It is so hard to struggle to stay awake all day only to be wide awake all night.

Do you know what doesn't help lack of employment? Friends with awesome jobs that they love and their surety that they are "sure everything will work out."
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa! (That was me losing my voice at the end.)
I went out for supper with some former co-workers on Saturday. All three of them are at fabulous schools with fabulous jobs. All they talked about was how happy they are with their fabulous jobs. Do I sound bitter? Of course, I just had a major meltdown last week when I was told that I would not be getting an interview with CBE as promised. Less than two hours after I found out, I was in my car driving to Regina. A little more than 12 hours later I had about 10 inches cut off my hair and I had enrolled at UofR for the winter semester.

It is hard to be positive about life when nothing seems to go right.