Into the Mind of Janny

I'm not feeling so great. I have been tired all day. I tutored this afternoon and when I was coming home I started to feel all achy. My roommate has the flu but I don't know if I am getting it or it is all in my mind. I still feel tired now but I don't feel achy anymore.

I have been think a lot about the song "Lovers in a Dangerous Time" by Bruce Cockburn. There is this one line I think about "kick at the darkness 'til it bleeds daylight." For the metaphorically challenged a translation: if you think something is worth it you have to keep at it.

This brings me to another point. I think you really have to choose you battles. I know that is cliched but is the truth. Some times keeping at it is not worth it. I know sometimes conflict can bring about change but sometimes the change is not worth the price of the conflict. For example, My co-operating teacher for my internship told me once "If you find yourself constantly enforcing a rule sometimes you have to decide if maybe it is an unreasonable rule." The ironic thing was she had this rule in her classroom that no students were allowed to put their feet on the baskets under the chair in front them. It got to the point where I was wasting so much time getting after students about this rule I had to re-evaluate. I realized that it wasn't that big of deal (as long it didn't bother the person in front of them) and was not worth my energy constantly enforcing it. I have tried to apply this to everyday life. If I am constantly upset or complaining about something, I think "Is this really worth getting upset over?" Sometimes you have to accept that what will be will be.