The way things used to be

My apologies for not updating my blog in awhile. I've either been too busy or not in the mood.

This past weekend I took a road trip with some friends. We all went down to Washington state for a church camp. It was amazing that with seven people in a mini-van there was not a single fight.

The meetings at the camp where really good. Every single message I felt like the speaker was talking right to me. For that I am glad I went.

Socially speaking it was OK I guess. It was a good weekend for girl talk and good times were had. I got to know some new people. I had so much fun playing football one afternoon. What made the camp kind of suck for me was the awkwardness around someone who used to be one of my closest friends. This person was one of closest friends up until about 5 years ago. This past January we both expressed desire to rebuild our friendship. Easier said than done. We email each other but can't seem to carry on a decent conversation face to face. During the camp I was treated like I didn't even exist. He would not even look me in the face most of the time if we were hanging out with the same people. There were times that if I joined a group he was in, he would take off. Just about a month ago we had decided to leave the past in the past. That apparently has not happened. I am not going to email him anymore. I've been fooling myself that we are friends. We are at best pen pals. If he wants to know what is going on in my life then he ask me to my face.

The trip home from the camp was a little strange. WE stopped in Cranbrook, BC for lunch and watch the CFL Western final. We left with 1 minute left in the game and the Riders were winning. When we got to Calgary where we were staying for the night we found out they had lost in overtime.

Later that night we went 10 pin bowling which I had never done before. I wish we could have done it for longer but we were limited on time because we got there a half hour before closing. I stayed up way too late that night. I got less than 3 hours of sleep. On the trip it was amazing what you find funny on little sleep (like the town of Balzac).

We got home around 4 pm on Monday. I didn't really want to go to choir that night but I knew as soon as I got there I would be glad that I did. I had to go to the grocery store as soon as I got home so we would have something for supper and the next day. As soon as I got into the car I realized that my roommate who had stayed home used my car. She did not have permission to use my car at all. I was so mad. I was already mad from the weekend but this made it way worse. I was out of the country with the car registration, if something had happened she would have been big trouble. I would have been understanding if it was for an emergency but it wasn't. Members from my own family are not allowed to borrow my car without permission. Later that night when I picked her up from work she apologized for missing a couple minutes of a show that I was taping and a mark she made on the bathroom floor. I told her I didn't care about those things and told her what really made me upset. For someone who talks a lot, she sure was quiet.

Earlier that night on my way to choir I almost got into 2 accidents at the same intersection. It was a 4-way stop. I waited for the 3 other cars that got to the intersection before I did. I entered the intersection when someone ran right through the stop sign. I slammed on my brakes and honked my horn then a truck that was right behind the car ran through the stop sign too. The guy driving the truck stuck his tongue out at me and gave me the finger. Way to make a bad mood worse. I had a very poor opinion of humanity that day.

Today I am a little sad about a missed opportunity. I checked an employment website this morning and saw I job I would love to have. It is for training people at the synchrotron at the university. They are looking for someone with an education degree with strong computer skills. I had a tour of the synchrotron a couple years ago and my immediate thought was I would love to work there. I even considered going back to school to get my B.Sc in physics so I could work there. The closing date was yesterday. :( Not much I can do now. I just have to trust that is where I am supposed to be they won't find someone for the position and post the job again.

I know how negative this posting has been so I'll leave it off on a good note. Last night I went to pick up from school. We had agreed to meet at a friend's apartment near the university. I got there a little early and had a good chat with my friend's Cory. We haven't seen each other in a couple weeks so we had lots of stories to tell. Since we saw each other I dyed my hair black and left parts of my natural hair colour as streaks. He noticed them and told me he thought they looked good. He is the first one to notice even though it was 3 weeks ago. It completely made my day. I had been having such a bad couple days that you have to appreciate the little things.